Long So i am completely stressed out at work... i had a mental breakdown this morning at my cube.. from the absolute second i got in at 801am, i sat down.. listened to my voicemessages, tried to read through my99 emails.. and just cried.....there was this irate doctor that set me off... in stead of calling me, he sent me a hand written fax... a HANDWRITTEN FAX That said he showed up for this dinner, and no one was ther... The pharm. rep wasnt there, no doctors were there.. nothing.. he thought he had teh wrong location so he went to the other restaurant in town, Ruths Chris.. no one was there.. he wrote this out in a hand written fax.. he wrote" QUE PASO" at the end.. he isnt even spanish.... WTF... he told me to call him.. not 20 minutes into my workday, he called me..... "what happened".. i dont know what happened i would have to get back to him.....well., turns out it was my bad... but one month ago I told my supervisor.."i am overwelmed".... she said it would get better... it didnt.. until i crashed and cried as i got the call from this doc....... i cried as the phones would ring off the hook... i coudlnt answer, i was crying too much. my coworker asked me a question over the top of her cube, and i look back over the back of my chair,. sobbing..... I have been at my job for almost 4 years.. our company has had tremdous growth.. its great and I LOVE it there.. i really realy do... but ever since we grew...personability has gotten lost somewhere.. my head supervisor.. is the absolute role model, most wonderful girl ever.... i have been with her since day 1.. she understands and is amazing.. my direct supervisor... good as a friend outside of work.... but i cant take it working under her... I am the type of person who gets asked something.. and it is DONE.. i am all on it.. she is not.she doesnt understand so back to work.... i got home tonight at 730.. PM that is.. I left my house this mroning at 745...Im not saying BOO MMEE>. but i am saying...... time flies by..... there is not enought time in the day....i get home.... pete gets home.. we have all of 2-3 hours MAX and then to bed... where we sleep for 5-7 hours and then the same thing OVER and OVER again...... its life, i know it..... but SERIOUSLY....... Life is too short.....I kept saying to pete "its the man" he makes us work so hard....... and what do we get out of it? underpayment of a job you are way overqualified for? I spend 10-12 hours sitting at my cube.... i spend 2-4 housr with my baby... go figure... THE MAN.... I want to win millions, i always said i would win it big and still work... but you know what..... i dont know if i would... i would get the house we always wanted (with the big bar downstairs), i would get the dog(s) we want, pay off my car, give some to my parents and his mom, pay off the wedding....and NEVER WORK A DAY IN MY LIFE.... i never thought i woulod think that way... but i could get cultured do some traveling with my man.. of course before kids... i cant wait, we cant wait.. i thinka bout how our kids are going to be...... one of these days..... My best friend had a baby... i talked about her a lot in my old diary.. jennlynn24 (locked now and sooo over with...lol) and well, she hada baby.. didnt call me or my other best friend.. we found out later that night through random circumstances....that she had her baby girl..... so we took a 1/2 day the next day, got her balloons and flowers and popped on by unexpectadly.... the baby is sooo little and so cute.. and her man is soo.... unappealing, and does not know how to have a conversation.... he is NOT what i EVER EVER EVER pictured her with... i hope for the babies sake he sticks around and well, fucking excepts us... but, and i know this will sound bad.. but she has so muc hlove and support and he is just dragging her down.. i think with her family and friends... she would raise her beautiful baby girl so much better.. with morals.... not to be brainwashed..... its just sad....i think she knows that she is, deep down.. she has this sadness..... but she does have the hapiness because all she ever wanted in her ENTIRE life is to have a child... she will eb the best mom, but with him around..... i dont want her to settle..... i hope she doesnt... Anywhooooo.. so the last couple of weeks... really has it been that long? whatever.... walter was around tonight..... yes, i am typing away.... i am fighting the MAN to stay up at least 4 hours since i have been home.. last week went out like everyngiht.. I had a lot of fun.. working til 7-730 then going out and getting silly... yep, like every ngiht.... my good childhood friend who went to the marines was home.. we went to local hole in teh wall and had fun.. this weekend also went to this place wher ethey had a dj and cheesy metros with their tight shirst and spikey hair.. is jersey REALLY that cliche? we ended up at a strip club.. peeing in the only girls bathroom which was in the strippers dressing room... good times.. LOL..... Jersey yet? How about I am going to see Bon Jovi with pete and jay, his girl and his sis... OK JERSEY GIRL.. OUT..... im making a random greenbean concoction... Oh, and Liz..... i check your diary every Monday and think "this weekend.. she must'a gotten engaged" I cannot WAIT FOR YOU!!!! |